armin was… ok. no, rocked out, but i went out on an empty stomach and left around half 1. one hard week at work, bad food all day. i was out. really nice work armin. if i could have found somewhere decent to sit i’d have sat back and enjoyed the show. i took the guy i live with, with me. was his first at family. i think he enjoyed it. family was packed. too full. no room to dance. not at all. you know how packed it gets on the back stage? it was like that everywhere. even on the stairs. ahhh. saw quite a few ppl i know too. bit of a downer, but i’m sure ill make up for it at ho_choo. must eat big before.
in reality im just a facilitator. all i have to give is information. im so fucking sick of taking the time with people, going through things with care and attention to detail, to have some loser from another agency beat my price by 5 bucks and then they fuck their booking up. i’m sick of wasting my time. im sick of all these shitty little domestic POS bookings. im sick of being the one that answers the fones all the time and taking the shit of other peoples clients. im sick of feeling im working harder and harder trying to get the figures for the bosses, but to no avail. im sick of everyone else being busy as when im quiet because i can only do the simple things. im sick of feeling useless. im sick of being frustrated. i want to work hard. i want to generate the figures. i want to do well. fucks sake.
its an epidemic. i just don’t really get it. why can’t some men piss. i see it in clubs, pubs, restaurants, at work… they’re at the wall, standin there with the old fella hangin out for a drain. i come in, whip it out, drain the lizard and get out of there. meanwhile, they’re shootin blanks. running dry. zip up and go with no result. whats with that? whats with using the cubicals? do guys get paranoid? some wierd headfuck? i think this is a serious issue thats needs to be delt with, and swiftly.
mornin. i’m gettin the question, so what have you been up to? quite a bit lately. all i seem to be able to fathom is: yeah, workin and that’s about it. haven’t been going out, no great walks, nothing really at all. i’ve been tryign to be good with the dinero, but i’m still not saving any money. i guess after paying for the cruise, rego and insurance all at the same time, that took a big bite out of the savings spendings account. hey, i ain’t gonan lie to youm travel industry wages are shite. and i’m a trainee. i could work at maccas and earn more. i’m not really all that carefull with what i spend my money on, but i am very wary that i’m not saving anything these days. and it’s not like i’m purchasing things i really want all the time. mainly just spending it on fuel, food and rent.
this weekend is my long weekend in lieu for last. startin off with armin van buuren on friday, then a new trance night on saturday night. i really have no motivation to do much else. mabey wash the rice. which is really strange for me. i’m normally so irrationally hell bent on utilising every single free moment to go out and socialise on the weekend (and very rarely have anything to do, or anyone to do anything with anyway and thus end up bitter and angry). i’d say due to the massive weekend coming up after this one.
speaking of which, it’s going to be a big night. ho_choo@family in the royal booth. we’re in the booth from 1-5 apparently, and i’m normally one to be there till the ugly lights, stompin away. then have to get home, siesta, then vote, then get taken to airport to fly to sydney… to do it all again for lex’s birthday soiree @ icebox, get to meet all the trancetribers too. very pumped. then the following afternoon, i jump on the Pacific sky with 3 compadres for a week of unrelenting shenanigans. i’m really pumped about that weekend and week there after. i’m gonna relax, i’m gonna enjoy myself. oh my!
so work. yeah. no where near my target this month. the powers know i’ve been pushin to get money from people. sit em down, talk to em, and take their money. hopefully feb will be a big month for me. we’re making a changeover as of next week, which i’m quite excited about. better support, better image, just better overall.
the movement? no mention for a while. the person who wanted to instigate and organise the move is poor at such things, let alone ever here to do such things. so i doubt it will be happening. slip seems keen for me to move in with him on the northside, mabey lookin for a new haus. would be good, just riverside expressway traffic everyday :/. i think after the cruise things will start to get rockin and rollin.
so it’s just over a week till the fun all begins. 17:30 on the 06th of February 2004. come on down.
Pendulum - A Night @ The Icebox 9.1.04 / 125:44
yeah. nice day. finally did a shop. been livin without food for a while. probably why ive been havin the shits. big shop. stomped it big time at family on friday night. one week till armin van buuren. 8 days of work to go. then ho_choo@family, sydney, cruise.
oh my!