moist.
It’s like BF1942, I’ve just stolen the allied bomber, and I’ve been shot down already and I cannot eject. NINE NINE NINE NINE NINE NINE.
(EDIT: I’m talking about Matrix: Reloaded) I think people build up their expectations similar to loosing ones viginity. There is no universal big fucking McBang with extra cheese, though it is pretty fucking good. Second time around, you don’t really build yourself up again thinking that you’re gonna see the cosmos suck into itself and go pop. You know what’s’a comin’ and don’t build up your expectations as much, generally. Unless it’s that damn fine lady which owns me so bad. Then you know it’s gonna be good. har!
So if you can get past the ‘maen this is gonna fuck with my head with all the philosophical shindigs’ and see that it’s pretty simple, and sit back and enjoy the FUN, it makes it better. Which is also a good analogy for sex. Don’t look into it so much and you enjoy it a whole lot more. But who am I kidding? It’s not like I’m getting any, being a big fat nerd and all. Well that’s how I feel.
Speaking of how I feel, I have come to the realisation that there are two types of people. Those that try to contact people and those that don’t. Sure, I’m lazy and don’t write letters to every single person I’ve met, had some crazy fuck off good time with for a brief moment and sworn to each other we’d write to each other and ‘catch up’. To savour the moment perpetually. It could be said that over time I haven’t rung or written to people, because I’m lazy and busy. I do however try to contact people. Quite often, and more so at this point in time, write random emails, randomly ring or sms, get on a foreign IRC server or just drop by irl.
People don’t reply. People don’t respond or return the favour. (Sure, sometimes they do). I’m not angry or bitter and I’m not going to fall into the natural thing of thinking ‘no one likes me/they just want to fuck me over’ because I know that 30c SMS isn’t worth it or you don’t feel like coming out or because you are lazy like me. Everyone is the same, doing little things and not getting the appreciation they think they deserve. Hey, I just want a fucking medal, if that’s alright? har.
Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t bringing me down too much, I’m just wanting to openly discuss my introversion. I realise that just ‘coming back’ and going out etc all of a sudden again, things won’t just ‘happen’, but it is lame to send out a becon and to perceive it to disappear into the void, or worse.
IRC has been a void for me also. I check it now and then, but I’ve been busy and had nothing to say (in such a medium). I noticed that people have been trying to create something with Windows Movie Maker. It’s like the matrix, and I’m Neo. It’s a shit app, but it can be utilised.
The eve of my last two shifts at Coffee Club. I want to do something big on Saturday night, but I fear that nothing will occur for the above reasons. (Obviously such a sentence in such a public forum has been used to conteract the above practices and cause people to feel guilt 
). We shall see.
A rather frank and personal post I must say. I know you only read the bits on sex and skipped the rest anyway hehe.
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* .MSWMM
* Gustav Holst - Mars
* Selling BIG
* cuppycake.wav on repeat
* weekends & beer
OUT
* Still LJ
* Expencive car repairs
* burnt tounges
* paying for things
* pretending to care
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I think the small amount of sleep on one night, followed by a substantial intake of sleep is an important part of the humaen life cycle. I have just undergone said cycle and feel very very leet.
The last 36 hours have been very interesting, socially, emotionally and many other ally type things with I am far too lazy at this point in time to think of. I attened a 21st bday party, of a person and with people in attendance that I had not seen in over 2 years. It was a little strange, trying to tell what has happened to me, or where I have been for the time.
As they are uni friends, the friendship bond isn’t that strong and it seemd quite fine with many of them that i would once again disappear and return again for another celebrity from the past experiance in the future. Had a few good conversations but I do find it hard to only talk about myself, and people quite often do find it hard to talk about themselves when they are unsure of the status of the diplomatics. If you know what I mean.
I ended up sleeping for only a few hours at the Hebe share house, cold broken sleep on the floor. But thats what you get.
Cruise to montville etc was leet. Couldn’t have asked for more perfect weather. It was so damn good. Nice cruise, nice turnout.
On the way back to Brisbane major, I visited flix which was very nice. I used the net, bathroom, had a nap and left. How rude .
It was then onto a movie of horseplay with kewn, uptime with leet people for a few moments before finally returning home.
So, I drove alot, thought alot (and ended in good thoughts), and cleaned a fish tank.
Today has little on the draw cards and I wish it was otherwise in a way dispite my overly busy past 48 hours.
Only 2 shifts remain at the coffee club, in 7 days time my life will shift once again and the results I hope are fruitfull.
Go forth and be leet.